LISTENING

I need to listen now....I need to hear..I need to see...its important.

In a few hours I will be on a train...making a journey that will, I am led to believe, affect the rest of my life.

I have something to do....exactly what it is, I don't yet know. I have been touched by a Higher Being, a wise old friend.... each step has been prepared for me. I have a 'calling'.....deep in my heart there is a voice....its been calling me for a long time and now I have heard and I am following the path set out before me. I have learned to trust it.

There is a light, there are so many lights.....in my minds eye I see them as 'The Sea of Souls' ...one of those souls is my friend Yvonne, another is her daughter Briony....they have been waiting patiently for me to listen...I cant ignore them any more....they need me and I need to do this for them. I see them now..they are near..earlier this evening I heard a voice inside reassuring me....'we are all with you, don't be afraid, listen and you will know.'

I have my life....they are not here to live theirs....they need me to acknowledge them, love them, be with them. the only way I know how to do this is to create an art work, a photograph, a remembrance of young lives taken but never forgotten.

Lockerbie...that's my destination. My eyes have filled with tears many times today.....but I have their courage with me....when I am there, I will open my heart and listen....they want me to be somewhere, they want me to feel something, they want me to understand. I don't want to let them down.

So I will listen. It is the least I can do.